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Yah, that's last moving, I promise.. XD

Reason was (is) that I needed better name, presentable one.
Like ya know, when i write on some pic "ObanMechanicKaitou" people won't even bother to read it xD;;;

But "iZe-kAMi" is easily remembered and kinda funny
//can't wait to iPod ID //
So what do you think?

I have lots of new artwork to scan and redraw and i can't wait to it. ^_^ its pretty slow altought, coz you know when i start doing something stupid it may takes hours X.x and then i cant get to important things. T.T


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OKAY I know I did lots of mistakes and stupid things to people that *were* close to me, and i like them, but i cant take it back.
I feel quilty and truly sorry, but maybe too ashamed to apologize personally. Or it's that i don't want to talk about it. altought, i cant avoid things that happened and still have influence on my life...
I don't even know what to do to get your trust and love back, because you dont seem to care anymore.

Anyways, I must apologize to everyone, to which I was ugly because i was in bad mood. Now I learned that if i dont tell someone what bother me, he cant figure it out himself (especially man, lol, how surprizing ), because people (apparently) can't read your thoughts. So, I'm apologizing, I feel awfully sorry for how i acted, for hurting you, and for blaming you. But true is that I felt really confuzed and I also *was* confused. I felt and saw so many things and reactions and I just didnt have anyone who would explain me why people treat me like i did something wrong...
I was just never strong enough to face it with calm head, so it got me and i made lots of mistakes i shouldnt, i wasnt really capable of thinking. that proves fack that every human in every moment do what he is thinking is best what he can, so i never meant to hurt anyone with my careless words.

Bus those times are over. I'm over my inferiority complex and i won't let my past ruin my future, because who looks past all the time, will just trip over the things that are before him, even if its something great (like new pc ).
you know that "priateľstvo je zlatá niť, ktorá keď sa roztrhne dá sa znova zaviazať, ale uzol ostane." ? //sorry boys who don't understand slovak // So this IS FUCKING NOT GOING TO WORK, WHICHEVER 'clever' HEAD SAID IT! YOU HEAR MEEE?!?!

ok, im normal now... >.>;;;;;

because the friends with which i "broke up" are not kinds who, when they forgive, there will be possibility for any scar to be, we've had enough scars, right? >:U

Now, I don't beg for your grace or forgiveness, I just want to let you know that I was never really angry at you because you did something wrong, I just couldnt see the one wrong was me. altought, maybe i saw it, but couldnt realize, didnt want to do another thing wrong... <_>

I'm sorry, everyone.

Of course it's normal if you don't want to talk to me/keep in touch with me anymore, I can understand that and I won' be angry, altought i would be happy if I could bfriend you once again...
If I still didnt definitely loose you. ^_^

Yes, there is still one choice for you; to not believe me. (O.o)
You don't have to, but you should at least give a reason to not believe me... hmm... that should be all..

No.

Wait. You don't even know why I'm apologizing, right? *coughsurecough*

I feel the need to tell you.

So here it goes, I'll admit everything I'm conscious of I did wrong.

In first place, I must apologize Okami-chan. I never wanted to loose you as a friend, not as a girlfriend my dear, but there was so many thing I felt quilty for I didn't want you to carry weights I've made senselessly and couldn't get rid of them. When saying yes I wasn't thinking that it can make me feel so uncomfortable to look into your eyes, but it did. and it was because I realized that i behaved very unfair towards you and motzy, as well.
Next thing that was worrying me was that you may find out about my problematic issues and aims and I won't be able to explain it... because I won't know myself.
I'm sorry.

In second place (fuck places... all first three issues are equivalently important), I'm going to apologize to motzy.
I'm going to apologize for aversion to your weak states, which I disliked most. I didn't behaved right, I should've soothe you all along, not just first few times. Altought, I'm vary of that it wasn't all my fault. You must admit there also was your part of fault, when you let all soothing tome and urged me all the time how wrong you are. Your inferiority emo (read poser, senseless weining) complex was kiling me inside, but I just pretended I stopped care so there arent two of us weining. And here is my part again. I tried to get over it, hoping it will pass and one day you'll just realize that isn't important what other people think about us, but what we *know* about ourselves. You kinda made me think all things you've said. That's why I acted like that, my love grew to dislike and i didn't want to share anything anymore. It was freaking me out how it changed, and again, you was begging me to rethink it again. but I've already rethinked it many times, and that was the result. So, you didn't realize that for love we must not beg, but fight. And also, that what we continue to wait from people/tempt people to think, in the end they end up thinking that. So thanks for making me think //proving me with your past behaviour// that boy ive chosen to live with and share every my drop of blood with is weining loser who can't even make a girl feel she can lean on someone.
Now thanks to everyone other and god who gave me new thoughts and rational wiew on other people that I understood things you did. But you can't say I didn't contravene until I could.
So, I would like to rebuilt our friendship too, to the point how it was from beggining, strong, firm and happy.
Will you let me, or you won't even read this?

Oh, and note to the comment I didn't reply
"the things I want to say are... I never tried to make you feel guilty, but maybe the reason you do is because you should, I made a lot of mistakes, but you did too."
Yes, I know, everyone do mistakes. I'm not going to tell yours were bigger, or mine was, but no, NO, I don't have a reason to feel quilty. remember that, because I on't reapeat it again, hoping you can remember it.
I hate when someone blame me for what is not my fault, and apparently, you think I should feel quilty, and thats little thing that makes me feel little guilty, especially when it's not true.

"You promised me you would never leave me... but when I needed you the most, as a friend, you just made me hurt more.
Take some of your own advice and try to look at it from my point of view, I looked at it from yours.
... and stop talking about avoiding talks, don't be a hypocrit."
I never left you, especially not when you was freaking out. I guess there wasn't much to say, and I'm sorry I couldn't just hug and hold you through the yahoo. Bacause that is only thing I would be able to do even in real.
I won't try to look at it from your point of wiew anymore, because everytime I tried it there was something wrong with my yours point of wiew.
And I don't avoid talks, I'm avoiding you, because I wanted to give us a brake, to think about it calmly, to realize mistakes we did and think about what we should do next.
And I'm not a hypocrit.(altought im not quite sure what it means, lol)
It kinda hurts more when someone you thought is your life love calls you name than some asshole in school. But it always hurt more when you know it's true (or, in our "you leaved me" case, when you know that other one think it's true. But he's only one who think that, ha.)

Whew, I guess I wrote enough.

Thirt place- Narusho club.
I must apologhize to you aswell, I was blaming you with no reason, and was noticing only your mistakes, not things you did for me. Especially to girls I knwo from them (Karai, Natsu, Okami, Shel), I'm sorry for my behavior and blaming you, and hurting you. I know you cared, and still hope I'm right when I say you care now, but I don't want underestime anyone nymore. ^^ So I hope you take my excuse, and if you care we can have a talk about it //not on net dammit, kay? T~T//
I still long for you and want you to know I realize my mistakes, am sorry for them, and if you give me a chance I'll try to fix them.

Next, I'm apologizing to new narushos (Eda, Asu,... and who? >.> that I'm being I think, too cold, or not very nice to them, and I bet I don't really appear likeable to them anyways. There's a lot of things you would have to know when I say something cruel (like that im pretty sarcastic and doesn't really mean it) and I hope it doesn't offend or hurt you when I do. So yeah, sorry girls. I'll try to smile at you more next time we meet.

Oh, and last thing, yes, my new boyfriend is good guy, I like him and can rely on him, we care for each other, we're good friends and we are happy to have each other. I don't have him just to have someone, as few of you can think, if he didn't show up i still would be single = P
He support me when I need it, especially he supported me when I broke up with motzy, he went through something alike before too so he could give me answers i needed, and we really have good talks, too.
He show me things I didn't know, and we meet every day, as much as we can. He is here to help me when I'm down.
But seriously, since I have him I wasn't really down.

Ok, once, that was weird. >.>; I am such a stupid child xD;

That should be all, I'm going to get ready to go out (wheee, light part of ze day xD).

Sister:
Motzy (XD):
Okami:
Neko-chan:
Narushos: :heart

don't really know the rest >.>;

DA friends: *surprized how many friends I love here* <3333

If I forgot something I will edit or say later. Please write me your reaction, what do you think and if you... nevermind. Just if you want.

So see you, hope it wasn't too boring to those about who it is.

So thanks everyone for reading, hope to see ya soon! Sending you a biiiig hug x3
*hugs* //yo and don't forget to check my new account okay? even if it's still empty >.<//
And have a nice day yourself. ;3
Byeee!

~Kai